A GREAT DAY

Hi All:
I'm going to try this again, so be prepared.
My life, so far has been challenging but over all pretty exciting.
So, part of the reason for this blog is to talk about my personal life. I do not want to sound at all full of myself but, I think that i might have had some experiences that perhaps might give someone else some insight or a different viewpoint.
Today, I am looking forward to writing an e-mail to a VERY special lady I have been writing to recently.
I enjoy writing and telling stories, so be prepared. Having ADHD, I sometimes go off on tangents and forget what my original point/idea was.
I'm looking at a practice water colour I'm doing of a red/pink day lily.
Watercolour has always fascinated me, but way to uncontrollable and free for me.
I have in the past preferred pencil, mostly ebony but some charcoal pencil.
Expression is one of the most powerful and elusive part of me.
So, I have a cheap ($3.50) piece of paper with some texure.
Started with my pencil and drew a very light outline and then did a couple of washes with Carmine wtrclr, then a prim red gouache.
I like the effect but the edges in the flower are too sharp and I'm not sure how to lighten/soften them.
That's the next step, we'll see how it goes.
Having fun, just for the sake of playing has never been a strong asset and one I am trying to cultivate in my retirement course.

Keep Trying!!
smitty