OK, it was going to be another wonderful day. NNOOTT!!!
I don't know why but I sure am getting old and lazy. Maybe not lazy, but I do not have the energy I used to have.
Supposedly, one works smarter--not harder with age. I'm wondering about the truth in that one.
I need more excitement in my life. I want it too.
I'm hoping/dreaming/fantasizing that there's a small/miniscule chance that my new friend, CYN might be part of that change/excitement.
But, I know better than to get my hopes up too much. I've been burned before and it doesn't feel good.
It hurts everyday, when I think about my ex. I never really did get angry with her. Maybe I should have.
When she got sick, I tried to be conscious of my energy level so that I didn't burn out. For the first year, it really was touch and go for both of us. I was working and being a single parent for two girls and a caregiver for my wife.
She did not understand that.
I think everything just finally caught up with me. Again, I thank my wonderful girls for helping so much.
smitty
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